over the hill

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that moment
just before you stop
looking forward
and turn
to see
where you
have been
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that moment
just before you stop
looking forward
and turn
to see
where you
have been
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Today I am over at Amy Oscar’s place,
as part of her Summer Wisdom Series:
I was so honored that she invited me to participate,
and would love it if you stopped over to say hello!

there is never enough
there is always too much
time mocks me from the corner
as i pace the perimeter
of this room
this life
that keeps me laughing
crazy silly insane girl
laughter
sometimes
yes
but always
laughing.
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it’s the echo
that drives
me.
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It’s been a strange year. Almost since day one, something felt off to me, some rhythm has been missing, something has been off kilter, off balance, out of place.
Something I cannot quite put my finger on, in just the same way that you cannot put your finger on the reflection in a puddle without causing a ripple that erases everything you see.
And I don’t mean to say it has been all bad, it has been a good year in many respects, but I just can’t seem to gain my footing, I can’t seem to get back to normal.
I think that some years are like that. Filled with questions and quandaries and dilemmas and decisions and injuries and healing. Clearly, this is one of those years.
And it’s okay. Time has a way of working all these things out.
So I’m going to sit here for a while, quiet, very still, with my hands in my pockets, and just stare at this reflection.
And when I’m ready, which will be sooner than later, I’m going to touch a fingertip, every so gently, to the surface.
Because normal is just a notion and there is life
happening all around me.

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it’s a plane…
it’s the place where
all that treasure
is buried in the sky…
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tell me,
what do you see?

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summer night
purple glow of
twilight
softly shadowed
insight
a dragonfly
pause
in mid-flight
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put your heart into everything you do.
there are times when it’s okay to stay quiet.
give of yourself and your time, freely.
if you can’t fall asleep sitting up,
well, you’re just not tired enough.
take care of what you have.
comfort comes before fashion.
kindness is the cornerstone of love.
if you have the right tools,
you can fix almost anything.
giving up is not an option.
your family is who you are.
integrity helps balance out mistakes.
whistling while you work is the
best way to make the time fly by.
patience isn’t a virtue, it’s a way of life.
the bigger your heart, the bigger your life.
showing up counts for more than you think.
a sense of humor, and learning to laugh
at yourself, will get you through.
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thanks, dad
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what you said was always so different
than what you meant
and what you meant was almost
never there.
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but you had that smile
playing music in its curves
one note always stuck
to the corner.
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